No Ups, Plenty Down.

There's been some kind of constant effort to play this year but for one reason for another - unrelated to poker - the time had never came. The past few days have been my first entry back into the poker world finally with enough concentration to sit and play but it seems the luck didn't follow. The first four days have been terrible, money wise - spirits wise I'm still good. There's an expectation of loss whenever I plough into the poker world after a long break. Today was my first positive day, mainly because I only played one game but perhaps that has been the problem, diving straight back in to multiple games instead of enjoying one or two games aside each other like it was at the beginning.

There are a few bonuses happening for me right now. I recently tried the trial for Holdem Manager 2 and it's great, so much better than the first in all ways. Problem is, now I want it. So I've signed up to Winner Poker, A site I'd never even heard of before in order to earn enough points to get HM2 for free as is advertised on their site. Got a few tickets free and a bonus to work towards to, the points seem much harder to get than on Full Tilt or Pokerstars however. Over at Titan Poker where I'd always had an account but never deposited a admin flashed up when I was checking on my money in there that I'd won from a free ticket they gave me and she offered me some free tickets and a free $5 to deposit now. Why not I thought, she advise $20 was the minimum but I deposited 20euros by mistake. When I signed on there was another bonus to be earning by playing too, exactly like the Winner Poker as they are both on the same network. Then! Over at Full Tilt they just gave me a random bonus to work towards, I've barely played on there and I'm further through with that bonus than the others and as an added award they come out $2 at a time rather than $5. Anyway, I started with a bankroll of $107 in these four poker sites, Winner, Titan, Full Tilt & Pokerstars and I'm down to $83.59. Now I know it doesn't sound like much but as always I'm sticking to bankroll rules, well for the most, even this small loss can be attributed to bad bankroll management. 

Anyway, I'll keep going till I win or lose my money. 

Once again.

The last few posts have all said the same thing, that l was trying to start playing properly again or at least with consistency. I've started again but perhaps not at peak form. I've tried daily at some MTT's without keeping track which is never good, although l play the same, there's a lack of consequences, like I can just keep going and going, perhaps even entering games outside of my usual bankroll rules.

So I've dusted off the old accounts to keep track of everything once again as it seems to instill a sense of keeping everything right and accurate. I've got a few bonuses going on and I'm aiming to purchase Holdem Manager 2. ln the meantime I'm to trying it out with its 30 day trial and so far I love it, there was anger when it came out as I had only just got HM1 and the price would have been the same.

There's been some STT playing today but not so well, I've been playing on Titan Poker And Winner Poker which are both on the same network and so look the same. I'm struggling with ten people single tables and have only cashed in one out of seven so it's not going so well. Either way I plan to keep going and I'm sure it'll click in eventually

Back again.

There's been some time away from poker for me recently, well as you can see I've tried to come back to it a few times but with limited success. My mind is unfocused and I've been able to concentrate as long as I used to be able to when I was playing for full days. My thought is if I get this going again then maybe I'll start taking that seriously again too.

One thing that seemed to effect my desire to play was moving my accounts from Excel, first to try and let Hold'em Manager handle that for me and then to an App I have on my Android smartphone. Both did the job well but it left me feeling disconnected to the process and more willing to throw my money away. The plan is to set up my excel accounts again and hopefully will make me get too attached to money as I used to be. There was a long time there where I needed to care less about losing but something about me doesn't care anymore which would be good except I care less about winning too, somethings gone but if I can start playing properly again I think I'd be a much better player than before, in more control and hopefully start making some cash.